Soooo.... I SAW RUTHIE! I love my Ruthers! I'll have to post some pics once i get them developed (and who knows when that might be). She is seriously the coolest person ever though. And Jebba was pretty cool too  . It was really fun and i got a cool purse for $10.
Just now tho, it was weird. I thought Rach and I were gonna switch phones to watch the Olympics with our family, but maybe she said that she was gonna get OFF the phone to do that. I dunno. But it was weird, cuz once i got the phone hooked up in my mommys room there was a dial tone like no ones on the phone and the phones off the hook. So maybe something happened, i dunno.
But I've been in a weird mood lately. I dont know what i'm feeling. I wanna laugh and cry at the same time. And my goal for the summer hasnt really been fufilled yet. Maybe it will be later, or maybe sometime in the school year. Not yet though, maybe God just wants to teach me patience, even when it has to do with doing things for Him.
I dont know what to do though, gah I'm crying. (i hate crying). But i totally didnt do anything this summer, and theres only like two weeks left. My daddy said no to the mission trip for next year, and man, I am totally scared for school next year. Not that its gonna be hard or whatever, cuz I hope it wont be too bad, but just like religion class and confirmation and stuff. I know God will take care of it though.
There you go changing my plans again
There you go shifting my sands again
For reasons I don't understand again
Lately I don't have a clue
Just when I start liking what I see
There you go changing my scenery
I never know where you're taking me
But I'm trying just to follow you
And thats really what it is. I totally just have to be broken. I've really realised that I cant do this life alone. Without God I'm nothing. With God I can be everything and more. Its just sometimes it seems that its harder with God, like theres more you have to worry about. And I guess I really just have to lay everything down and realise I dont have to worry about anything, cuz "He's got the whole world in His hands".
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